Friends and foes alike may have noticed that I would go MIA quite frequently these days. It’s not the lack of inspiration that have caused my disappearance from the blog-o-sphere, but it is because apart from being extremely busy doing editorial work for my books and whatnot, God has seen it fit to bestow me some blessings in the form of good friends who had been very generous and thoughtful not only towards me but my entire family, including my cat as well. I am so sorry if my visit to your blog is less frequent now.
It is not because I have forgotten you or turned cocky, but it seems that these days, time seems to envy me. There’s so much to do, and yet, there’s so little time. But please be assured, you are never forgotten. You’re are always there in my heart.
While last year could have been the worst year of my life, where all sort of nonsense were thrown in together and made me depressed to the point I felt so alone and almost suicidal, I am glad that this year it’s been full of blessing, though my life is nowhere close to perfect.
Those who were superstitious might have you believe otherwise, for this is the year of Tiger in the Chinese Zodiac calender and it is believed that it is not quite a good year for a lot of things and luck is not on your side, but I am glad that I can say, so far, my life is not only filled with excitement and challenge, but blessings as well.
I may have many complaints and tears last year, but this year, God blessed me with many things, and here I am, giving thanks for His beautiful blessings. He had taught me that there is goodness in everything, and when bad things happens, it happens for a reason and it’s usually a blessing in disguise. I now have come to learn not to blame Him when things happen, but learn to look into different perspective each time things happen.
God gave me many wonderful friends who loved me for who I am and what I’m not. He gave me friends who would help me and be there for me when I’m distraught, and He gave me friends who spoiled me rotten just like they would spoiled their bratty little sister, and He also showed me who cherished the friendship and who doesn’t.
The almighty one also taught me that while some friends are made to treasure… there are certain ‘friends’ whom I need to be aware of, for they are the kind who will use me and ditch me when I am no longer useful for them to be used.
Last year, God told my entire world to darken, so that there will be light for me this year, and I am truly thankful on how things turn out to be. I could see clearly now. And am I complaining? No… I am giving thanks for all the blessings He saw fit to bestow upon me and my family.
Lately, when I blogged about my books, and some events that I attended on invitation, some would have congratulate me for being famous. But you know something? I am not famous. I never felt that I even was in the first place.
I never want to be famous or even well known. I prefer not to be ‘in the picture’, cuz I believe fame comes with a terrible price that I am not willing to pay, and I’ve always believe that fame will turn someone ugly and ungrateful. Fame too can make one forget their own root and sometimes, judgment will be clouded as well.
Fame will take away many things from me… that is what I’ve always believe. While fame is highly sought after by others, it is something I would terribly avoid. It costs too much. I am a rather vain person, you see. I hate to think that I’d be turned into something ugly to the point I could not recognize myself in the mirror. It terrifies me.
Anyway…the point here is…who needs fame when everyone is sincere to me when I’m just a nobody? I’d rather be a nobody. There is more joy in that. Pure, blissful, unadulterated joy.
Anyway, this is a thank you blog entry to thank God for all the blessings He gave me and show me that some friends are just for keep, and doesn’t really meant to just be friends, but family instead. Sometimes, I really do wish that I can be rich, just so that I could spoil those whom spoiled me in return. 😀
Cleffairy: I’m not going to name names over here, for I fear I’ll leave some names out, but thank you to all of you out there, for nothing is more great than what you have done for me. And of all the gifts I’ve received… the one that touched me most is the one that reminds me that God is always around me. And I shall keep it close to my heart. Thank you, for all you have done for me.