I know there’s a lot of hoo-hahs going out there in the cyberspace about Steve Job’s passing on 6th October 2011, but seriously, I can’t quite give a damn right at the moment. Would love to extend my condolence and whatnot, but I can’t seems to find the words to do so right at the moment. Hey, don’t blame me for being heartless or cold about the matter, I’m just being honest.
While he contributed his ideas and energy alot to make the world a better and a more stylish place to live in, he made very little impact on my life. Say… I’m not an Apple products user. I don’t use iPod, iPad, iPhone and whatnot, and the last time I used a Mac desktop was when I was 6 years old. That was two decades ago.
Right at the moment, I can’t quite a give a damn about anyone else’s passing…not when I don’t know them personally and not when my father in law is in the hospital and I have to fill my head with worries about him instead. Sure, his lung surgery had gone well, and he’s slowly recuperating, but the sight of him coughing blood and the dirty blood that’s slowly being pumped out of his punctured lungs through two plastic tubes into a large glass jar somehow scares me.I cannot imagine the pain that he’s going through right now, even with the sedatives and painkillers.
It is hard to show that you’re brave and strong when you’re filled with worries. Things are rather overwhelming to me right now, and I don’t really have the mood to do much things. I may not get along well with my in laws, especially my mother in law, but I do love and respect my father in law nevertheless. He have been very kind and understanding towards me, and I wish to repay his kindness.
I’m feeling rather drained and tired. There’s too much bad news around me. A couple of says ago Uncle Chee (the actor who played Baba- my childhood idol) passed away. That hit me really hard. It was really unexpected as I met him at the end of August and he was looking fine, and there was no sign of sickness at all. The news rendered me speechless, in fact. I guess when it’s time for you to go, then you will go, isn’t it? Nobody can beat Death, I suppose.
*SIGH* I’m in need of positive vibes. I know it’s not possible to ask people to stop telling me about people’s death, but isn’t there any GOOD NEWS around? 🙁 I need a few good news to make my day.
Cleffairy: Sorry for the lack of coherence in this post. I wrote this using my smart-phone and I’m just being emotional. I just need to let the bad things out. *SIGH*