Giving thanks

Initially, I wanted to write about this last night, but I arrived home rather late, and I was so exhausted that I dropped dead as soon as I arrived home. The day itself overwhelms me. There is nothing like a good working stress to keep my head from delving into thinking and mourning about those things that I cannot change. Work, as usual, is something that I can handle, but not those bloody emotional stress.

I wanted to give thanks to God. Praise him, for filling my day with joy and unexpected surprises. First there was a guardian angel who sent me present in the form of beautiful clothes….for both the ET and Alien. LOL.

The guardian angel wishes to remain anonymous, so I’m not going to mention the angel’s name over here. LOL… Anyway, thank you very much for everything. πŸ˜€ It certainly brighten up my day, especially the ahemm… ‘mourning garment’. It is so, very thoughtful of you, my darling. I certainly will use it wisely. LMAO. Guess you’re now my partner in crime, eh, sweetie?

Look at what this God’s angel sent to me…

One bulky package on my doorstep.

Double wrapped the pressie for me to build up the joy of anticipation…

Three cutie t-shirts…

And one cool, dark coloured shirt for me to scare people with. *grinZ*

Anyway, receiving the package makes me feel that God is blessing me, and encouraging me to open up my heart to Him and the others, and persevere in the world where evil reigns over goodness most of the times.

All my life…I’ve always been the one who give and give non stop, up to the point that I felt that I have nothing left to give, and so, when I’ve been placed on the receiving end, I feel so touched and grateful.

The people in my life, people that I gave things to, never really did appreciate what I gave them, or even be grateful for my efforts. Instead, they asked for more, and I almost stopped believing that the world can actually give back something, until recently where I’ve been overwhelmed with God’s blessing in the form of good friends who are generous and thoughtful…the people whom I actually never even gave anything yet. Yes, it does feel good to be on the receiving end. It makes me feel warm and well loved.

Yesterday, my blessing did not stop just there. As there was an unexpected surprise visit from people whom I love dearly. And also a surprise phone call from my best friend. All of these things makes me so happy. I felt that my day was filled with blessings, even though I have unresolved issues in my closet.

I used to think that the whole world is against me and God doesn’t love me, for He keep punishing me with the hardship of life. Little did my human mind know, that those things that happened to me are actually blessings and His way to tell me the truth about life.

His way to knock on my doors the way I’ve been desperately knocking on His. It is His way of telling me that nothing last forever.The good and the bad… nothing ever last forever, and I am worthy of His love, though I don’t know what I have done to deserve it. Thank you God, for not giving up on me when I actually gave up on You. Thank you for being patient with me.

Cleffairy: Sometimes, I feel sad for those who couldn’t feel grateful for what they have and often take things for granted and keep asking for more, for they wouldn’t be able to understand that being able to wake up from sleep every day itself if a blessing. Not many are privileged enough  for that.


28 comments

    • Cleffairy says:

      *sigh* It sounded a lot like those people in my life. haizzz… can’t live with them, can’t live without them either. Wud to do? i have to just tolerate lorr… Cheering up? LOL… Just trying to be positive.

  1. Kathy says:

    Waa…so syok ah got Guardian Angel. Ni Angel Gabriel ke or what ah? Can be partner in crime one..kakaka.

    But seriously, I guess sometimesGod work in mysterious ways loh.:)

    • Cleffairy says:

      Gua tak tau lah, wud angel? LOL…mebbe the nottie wan kot? Ahahahahah…

      Yes, God does work in mysterious ways. Sometimes we just don’t understand. We’re human, after all.

  2. Anonymous says:

    I’m so glad you have ‘softened’. God is really working in you now. Keep it up. Maybe it’s time to go to church. πŸ™‚

    • Cleffairy says:

      =.= ‘softened’… Chris… do you know what is the calm before the storm? *growl* When I am ‘softened’ and ‘sweet’, that’s when the dangers began! *evil cackles* I was a very gd Catholic girl wan, actually. Dunno why turn so rotten. LOL!

    • Cleffairy says:

      Sure you are… each day wake up oredi a blessing, bro. You have yet to realize it. Don’t worry… you got a friend like me and Cikgu, then you are blessed enuff. LOL…anytime you want me to listen to your problem, I will listen wan.

  3. suituapui says:

    Must get your address. Once I go back and settle down to my usual routine, I must see what I can send you and your alien too. Lots of brand new things I bought my daughter but she never used – don’t worry, no dresses for your alien! Hahahahahaha!!!!

    • Cleffairy says:

      Wahhh! So good wan ah? Wakakakaka… I wun paiseh wif you wan, Cikgu… later I give you my address. LMAO… You accidentally buy a lot of things, issit? πŸ™ *sigh* when my parents go oversea… we also buy a lot of things… ended up, most need to keep in Malaysia… cuz the luggage got limit, and foodstuff cannot really bring oso.

  4. fatty oldman says:

    everyday its a blessing day…else wont be here liao….lol

    thanks for ur offer eyy.. πŸ˜‰

    so many ppl gv u present but im poor cant gv anything… :O

  5. Annie Q says:

    You’re lucky girl and loved by so many people. πŸ™‚

    I just about to said the same thing. Why you never give me your address lei?? How to look for you yum cha and give you surprise visit lei???

    You must be very happy, your dad give you a suprise visit?? hehehheheh

    Here wish you and your family, Happy Tiger New Year! Roar Roar Roar and it will be a better year for you. πŸ™‚

    • Cleffairy says:

      LOL… my life is not perfect, but God blessed me with so many loving and thoughtful friends. *grinZ*

      Aiks… u wanna cari me yumcha ah? Can, can… later i drop you my address… but after CNY la…lol going back to… ahemmm… to the yearly house arrest.

      Yes, very happy… it’s such a pleasant surprise.:-D Just too bad a few days will be wasted, cuz going for ‘house arrest’ ma. LOLX.

      Ohh, ‘ROAR ROAR’ den the year will be better ah? Den I must growl lorr! LOL… Happy CNY, and Happy V-day to you, Annie.

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