Love, faith, and hope…

I’ve been reciting prayers for the whole goddamn day. Why? Don’t ask me… I’m freaking out over evil sorceress and royal pain in the ass succubus who no doubt shall suck my blood dry til nothing is left of me. As I said, my life is like an action thriller, and I had to live like a stunt movie star. Right at the moment, this movie star is waiting for her impending doom as it’s approaching.

Oh yes… it’s coming. It’s that time of the year again. Lesser than a week now, with all of those monstrous lions waiting to bite my head off, and I will be no doubt, be bruised and battered a few days after, and I will have to search and find a way to heal myself.

I have love, and God has granted me faith, and now that I know I’ll be bruised and battered after being thrown into such a horrendous stunt in…say, approximately six days, all I can do is hope that someone out there is bearing the first aid knowledge and willing to heal me after that. Anybody? Anybody? Aww, come on, don’t tell me none of you are first aider. I am actually one, but even a first aider needs another when he or she is injured.

Anyway, please pray that I will come out of succubus dragon’s lair in one peace, with my heart and soul still intact. And in the mean time, let me share the serenity prayer with all of you over here. Most of you may not be Christians, but the prayer is inspiring nevertheless.

I have come to the point of my life, where I believe that I cannot always rely on the comfort of human around me, because… to some people, I am nothing special, and deserve no protection nor attention. To some, other things are more important, and whether I like it or not, I have to accept that at times, my feelings will be taken for granted in favours of others, and my faith will always be laughed upon by Pagan whores.

It doesn’t matter. My relationship with God is my own business, and I never asked people to respect my beliefs and faith though I am forced to kneel before theirs. Sometimes I wonder if mutual respect is even achievable…for as far as I am concern, I never asked people to change their ways of life… the way they worship, the way they eat. Perhaps I am asking too much.

All I can do now is pray for serenity for the things I cannot change. And here, allow me to share the Serenity Prayers with all of you. May God grant all of you serenity, and inner peace for the things you cannot change.

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity,

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things right,

If I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life

And supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

And here is Serenity Prayer by Olivia Newton John.

Cleffairy: Shape your life by the way you think. Shape your thinking by the way you love. Shape your love by your willingness to open your heart.Open your heart by your sheer desire to experience more love. I am naught but bare…I only have love, faith and most importantly, hope.


  1. fatty oldman says:

    dont think when god not helping us just smts he just dowan to help as he wanted gv us a lesson on what we had done…teach us more correct path to lead…when all those suffering over we will be rich in blessing in return…stay strong stay hard stay connected…thre owes a gui ren/ghost fren as call will stand beside when right time come… 😉

    • Cleffairy says:

      Yes, true… He’s just trying to make us see…so that we’ll grow stronger, and thread carefully, be more careful of people, and don’t keep blame on others. 😀

  2. ericlee says:

    well…wish you luck in whatever you are facing…may God be with you….It really bugs me that you never reveal what are you facing though..LOL wish you luck…XD

  3. kathy says:

    There is a story in the Bible about someone got thrown into the lion den and survived coz God protected him. Don’t worry. Many will be praying for your safety when you are in the lion den.

  4. CHVoon says:

    it is a bit problem nowaday that you can not comment …
    (i come from Manglish’s chatting box)

    May i know that you use what browse? Internet explorer or Google Chrome?

    Currently i use Google Chrome and i found that difficuilt to leave a comment at

    But, if you use the Internet explorer… this problme is solved!

    Try and see!… now i have to use internet exploerre for temp.

    • Cleffairy says:

      LOL… I’m using Firefox. But I cannot use IE… because my Operating system is not Windows, I’m using Ubuntu Linux. Windows not suitable for me, cuz lack of security and virus magnet. For me, Linux is more secure. I dun hv to worry bout virus and spyware oso. LOL…

      Actually no problem for other blogs… just Manglish’s blog, I have no idea why, cannot leave comment sometimes.

  5. CHVoon says:

    cool! fast response ar… 249am u still not sleep ar…

    mmm i found that almost all blogs whose use blogspot… i cannot comment at all! your one… look not problem for me.. but the rest… problem! problem! included Merryn as well.

    i have to use window because my company – MuST!

    you are panda queen hehehe

    • Cleffairy says:

      LOL… Panda Queen bz do work ma… night owl…do work at nite wan, else my little alien will disturb me, cannot work.

      I kno… that’s blogspot problem. Some browsers will hv problem commenting… 🙁 You have no prob commenting in mine, cuz I’m not using blogspot ma… all these while I was using wordpress, and after that, i migrate the blog outside. So you shouldn’t have any problem commenting here…unless there is a problem with my blog hosting. 😀

      ps: i hate windows, screwed me inside out wif virus… got sick, ditch it for Linux, no prob til now.

  6. eugene says:

    just like you dear, i am drawing closer to him now,i know it is hard but God is patient to let us find out way to HIM, and when we do, nothing else seems to be bothered.

    Just trust in HIM,, he will see you through, i repented before HIM for i have wronged him in so many many ways, but he let me, and now i have to come clean with myself and surrendering to HIM and be guided by HIS ways.

    Take care now

    • Cleffairy says:

      I suppose I am lucky that He knock senses into me when I am still young, eh, big bro? I could have been lost for a lot more years to come…He light a way for me, and I am forever grateful for that.

  7. fatty oldman says:

    u r small in size so everything oso small including hati…*no pun intended* 😛

    human got heart but god dun have as he had love only so thre wil be no hate… 😉

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